In thoughts, we fall in love..

She is cute! Oh.. and he is handsome. Ok, they look smart. So? nothing odd about it right? Many people are smart, and surely many of them must look happy at the same time too.
Wow! there's a cushion seat over there. 4 hour class.. that's the only seat meant for me! "You two wanna sit in the front? Well but I think I'd be more comfortable here."
What! *sigh* there they go, they had to take a seat just behind those two smart people. And now they call me.. Can't you see that there's only one chair left beside you in the row, the one behind the chair the girl is seated on. "I am staying here only."

Did i get scared to go there? Scared why? I mean scared ! Ok, by now I do have started doubting that the guy and girl are together, maybe that will make me sick to sit just behind them, behind the girl that too. But still Scared! No way. I'm not scared!


These people they always delay things. Here am stuck alone with nothing to do. I should move ahead, not behind the couple but surely I can move to the row behind my friends, that way i can also sleep over his shoulders if I want to!
"Hey guys! I came here. It's boring unless they start. I shall play games 'till they do."

This is annoying, you got to be perfect here now!
Yippie! that's one more gold! I wasn't expecting this, not when am not focusing solely on the game.
The couple.. what's so different about them!
GREAT! that's what happens when you are not concentrating.
"Hey, by mistake I reset the game. Now I'll have to start over again! The tracks and cars, all locked."
Afresh now!


The girl keeps looking at the guy in between. That's sweet.
At times even the guy looks at her. Even when they are not talking.
Now they are talking. Discussing rather? Why should I bother! I might reset the game again.

The class' gonna start. Thankfully I kept the notebook at the last moment, this is not just another lame doubt class.

Both of them surely are happy. Surely they are more than just friends or batch mates.
They talk in between for a while.
Regular. Maybe they are discussing what's being taught. But they were talking even before the class got started.

What's this?! How can they seem so carefree and be in such a light mood that I can make out!
They are happy! Maybe they got together recently.. 1 minute, 1 minute, got together recently hmm? Now that's another thought! That should explain why they look so carefree.
But aren't they supposed to be batch mates. In case they are, they are supposed to be in there last years too, slim chances they got together recently. So they have been so happy and all during all this time? I won't believe that!
Why won't I believe that? I don't know yet.

Maybe they are in true love, and this is how it must be, being like these even after a couple of years.
What if they were to separate for some reason? No no .. Please let them be together! God please
This is what sickens me now. I feel terrible, no, sad, not terrible now, so that's another sign of weakness of feelings. Maybe I was not true, I only felt a little better than normal being together. Also now I feel only a little sad, so what if I felt terrible before. I must have got it wrong! I should listen to the lecture!

So does that mean this particular couple will be happy for the years to come. Ok not a life time, say 10? How am I supposed to believe that? I still can't!!
And if they separate, I wish they never do, but suppose someone else, some other couple like this were to separate, would they feel terrible all the rest of their life? Ok not life so take 10 years again. I got over pretty soon compared to that!
Why can't I figure this out.


"This teacher is cool man!" They agree too. Good so it's not that I'm specially bad in the subject cause of which I felt so.

Wait a minute! It was not just a few months for me either. It has been 3 years almost. Not exactly together but well both of us at the same place. That makes you used to it right? So you are not supposed to feel special pleasure when you got together. I did feel special though. So maybe it takes a couple of years for things to start feeling normal again. I hope this couple gets more time than that.
Oh..that was the first time I actually supported the idea of getting together for others too. Before this I had always thought of them as fools or jerks as the cases most commonly are. That makes me happy too. Study!


Isn't it like a constant difference thing? Say you make a scale and mark 5 divisons; very happy, happy, normal, sad, very sad. We are comparing the effects now. Take this couple who are happy now, if they separate they would be sad or very sad. Now take an eledrly couple than this, going by logic they would have started feeling normal about being together for so long, and now if they were to separate they would surely be more sad than this couple, so lets rate that as very sad, and for this couple sad. We see there's a difference of 2. That fits in.
So that means if you are very happy being together you will only be normal if u separate? Strange! Maybe this is not true. But you can't be very happy for a long time after getting together. Perhaps only at the initial stage, and if you were to separate you would soon get over things. PERFECT now!


I hope this class helps my understanding of the subject. I desperately need it.

The girl looks fed up of the lecture now. Wasn't she supposed to be happy? Happier than me? I can still bear the lecture! I mean I've just started to wear out. Just started! Oh and by the way isn't fed up a phrasal verb? That's what the teacher just told right? Yes.
So why did the girl get fed up before me? I know am not a nerd! It's cause I wasn't actually listening sincerely *grin*. Also I'm supposed to have gotten used to lectures by now. Maybe the girl doesn't attend all the lectures in the college like I do. Very few people do.

Finally a break! Cool! Move out.. move out. "How long is this break gonna be?" 10 minutes would be fine.

Back!
So the couple isn't seated at the previous seat now!
Hmm.. looks like they are not attending the class now, or maybe I can't see them from here.
They are not in the class. Cool! Study now!

Class over. I'm lost! Again!!



P.S. In thoughts, we break up!

One reason I decided upon writing a blog was to move a particular post to a more secure location. I don't know why am I still trying to reason out why I got started! Well anyways, had to say something *grins* .

Scatter

Done! It wasn't easy though, honestly!
Took me a long time, and a great deal of thinking to finally decide upon getting started. Glad now :)